This question has been on my mind for awhile. Maybe it’s because of the excessive amounts of Sex and the City I’ve been watching or the total shock of watching people I thought would be together forever are separating/divorcing.
This post will probably have no real meaning other than me asking all the question that have been swirling around in my head.
Is there one person for you? Do we have soul mates? I believe every romantic relationship we have is in some form of a soul mate. Wether or not that relationship worked out you took something away from it. And during that your relationship you were happy (hopefully).
My past relationships have all been relationships that were perfect for that time in my life. I took something away and grew as a person.
How do we decided to fall out of love? Are we fighting hard enough for what we need from our significant others?
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Lately I have been feeling a bit frustrated. I wake up, go to the gym, then to work. To a work I am not completely happy with. Somewhere along the way I lost sight of what I really want to do as a career. I spent about 6 years in school for my dream job and I’m definitely not there, yet.
As I was working on a project today I found myself becoming all consumed with frustration. There are people who work hard everyday because of the bigger picture and then there is always that one guy who does the minimum (but still has a big head).
I get completely consumed in their lack of work that I lose focus on what I’m reaching for. I need to take a few minutes and try to breath instead of getting frustrated. I am working for something and letting myself forget that is putting me one step behind, again.
I’ve decided after today’s frustration debacle I need to focus more on me and my career goals. I love sketching, and I really want to open that online boutique. I was meant to be in some kind of creative field. And I need to reach for that.
I’m not even sure where I want to begin here. There is so much happening in our world that I feel so confused. I’ve had a cold for the last week and it seems to be the only thing I can focus on. The cough, the headache, and the runny nose.
I always feel super sentimental this time of year. I try to reflect on the year and think of what I’ve done to better myself. Getting lost in the daily shuffle tends to be my issue. I get caught up in the daily and forget to look around me. Most recently my phone has decided to stop sending text randomly. The only way I can get it to work is by restarting it. Getting so caught up in my frustration I ordered a new phone only because it wasn’t available right now ((yes I got annoyed about having to wait)).
Our government is currently shut down and I’m concerned with my perfectly functional phone/a cold. Talk about walking around with blinders on…
With another new year rapidly approaching I am trying to focus on the aspects of myself I haven’t worked on. What can I do this year and in the new to help make things better for me/others? Growing up here in the states has been amazing but traveling to other countries has also reminded me to take off my blinders.
In my 20 something years what have I done for others? I am not planning on sharing my list of new years resolutions here but I do plan on sharing my growth to become a better person. So with that, do you plan on reflecting on the last year? Am I weird for not wanting to share my resolutions?
Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about transferring over to blogger. I mainly blog because I like to play around with blog designs and write my thoughts. I didn’t do any research before starting this WordPress blog but now I feel like I should have.
I did post something on blogger and seemed great. But I lost interest because I would need to rewrite everything. About, our story, all of it.
I want this space to reflect me and who I am. Just trying to find the best way is hard.
If you want to be a truly honest blogger it means putting yourself out there for all to read. So WordPress or blogger?