Dear husband, thanks.

On June 29 we celebrated our fifth wedding anniversary and I just feel like I need to say thanks to the man that challenges me, loves me, pushes me, and respects me.

The last five years haven’t always been easy and I know the next fifty won’t always be easy but thank you for making our life seem easy. Even during our rough times you point out the light at the end of the tunnel making whatever hurdle lie ahead seem easy.

The best piece of marriage advice I received was this “you may not like each other everyday but you will love each other everyday”. These words could not be more true and been more accurate for our life thus far. I can be a bit of a pain in the ass…. but I know even during those rough times our love for each other is still there.

So L, this ones for you.

Thank you.

Now, enjoy the massive photo dump of the last five years.

Memory lane

Happy November 1st! I hate to say it’s officially the holidays but woah! Thanksgiving is only four weeks away. Hope everyone had a happy and safe Halloween.

I’ve been meaning to get this post up all week but work and life have been busy.

My mom and sister came over Sunday morning for a little walk down memory lane. We spent a few hours together going through old family photos. It was emotional but also so good. I think we needed this to really appreciate the lives we’ve been given and the memories attached.

Here are a few photos from our walk down memory lane. Enjoy!

Me being me.

 

Family trip to Seaside.

Me, mom, Smokey, and my nephew Bryant.

Nicole feeding one month old Bryant.

My cousin Ryan feeding baby Bryant.

Granpda Tony and Nicole.

Nicole, me, and our cousin Dawn.

Disneyland!

The very first photo of the three muskateers. Mom, me, and sissie.

I still make this face when I’m upset/not getting my way.

Gosh we were super cute 80’s kids!

Me and grandpa enjoying Seaside.

 

 

Sally goes to the beach!

 

This weekend was one for the books. Our sweet Sally saw the Pacific Ocean for the first time. It seems silly that it took Sally’s cancer diagnoses for us to, I guess, wake up in a way. Our dogs are more to us than just dogs, they are our babies. Sally has been part of my husband’s life longer than he can count without truly thinking about it. There bond is one for the books. From accounts from L’s mom he sounds a lot like his grandfather (a great man I was not able to meet). As I have said before wherever he goes, she goes. She is his right hand gal.

As for the chemo. We are still seeing a positive response. We have been able to cut back on her cough medicine and she seems to be sleeping better each night. As I have said before, our job as great fur parents is to sustain her quality of life. We are not naive and in no way think the chemo is going to cure her, but at least we know we have done our best to help the symptoms. If you don’t have an animal that you feel this way for I highly suggest you get one. The love we get from our dogs, heck even our shop cats, is indescribable.

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Sally’s Bucket List.

Sally Salamander.

Sally Salamander.

Saturday October 4th we took our dog to the vet for a follow up appointment. The vets have been treating her for pneumonia. We left after a little over an hour with heavy hearts. Sally has cancer.

Monday October 6th L took Sally to a specialist. The best in our area for treating cancer in animals. L and I love our dogs more than life itself. When we heard the words terminal we knew it wasn’t about curing but about eliminating the pain.

Thursday October 9th Sally has her first chemotherapy treatment. The appointment only lasts about 45 minutes. At the end we’ve already noticed her breathing is slightly better (chemo reacts differently in animals and helps with cancer symptoms drastically).

Saturday October 11th. Its been two days since Sally’s first chemo treatment. She’ll never been 100% but watching her finally eat some chicken and drink water has been the greatest thing.

I started this as mainly a timeline for our own reference. A place to remember the chain the events that has changed our life and our other pooches lives. For a dog that has lived a fabulous life who only knows love, it is our job to make her as comfortable as possible. L has decided we need to start Sally’s bucket list. First thing up is seeing the ocean. All dogs deserve to know the intense power and freedom that over comes you when standing on the sand in front of the powerful waves. We even created a hashtag just for Sally and her adventures, #sallysalamandersbucketlist.

Does true love exist?

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This question has been on my mind for awhile. Maybe it’s because of the excessive amounts of Sex and the City I’ve been watching or the total shock of watching people I thought would be together forever are separating/divorcing.

This post will probably have no real meaning other than me asking all the question that have been swirling around in my head.

Is there one person for you? Do we have soul mates? I believe every romantic relationship we have is in some form of a soul mate. Wether or not that relationship worked out you took something away from it. And during that your relationship you were happy (hopefully).

My past relationships have all been relationships that were perfect for that time in my life. I took something away and grew as a person.

How do we decided to fall out of love? Are we fighting hard enough for what we need from our significant others?

Dear Mom.

Me and my mom on my wedding day.

Me and my mom on my wedding day.

Dear Mom,

I’m not 100% sure where to start. I’m about to write down how much you mean to me. It’s funny because I should be able to say all of this directly to you, but thats the funny thing with emotions. I don’t know if I would ever be brave enough. You are the strongest person I know. You were the rock for sissie and I our whole lives. Without you I wouldn’t be the person I am today.

Growing up I never knew of the hard times. I’m sure there were many as a single mom, but you always seemed to have it together. Whatever I wanted, you gave me. Whatever I needed, you gave me. Even today, we were suppose to be out celebrating you and you still paid.

I know when I was younger (always late for curfew) I didn’t appreciate it. You always waited up. I’m sorry for getting annoyed with you about that… Yes you were upset with me but it always came from a place of love.

Today while we were talking about me becoming a mom one day I kept thinking I hope I’ll be at least half the mom you are. Sorry about the comment babies shouldn’t have babies… Yes I am 28 but still have some growing up to do. I know though when that time comes you will be right there teaching me.

Happy Mother’s Day to the greatest Mom I could have ever asked for.

P.S. Sorry about all the drunk dials during my college days…. I now know 6am New York time is not an acceptable hour to call and tell you all about my night on top of the Empire State Building.

6 Months //

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Well we’ve arrived a small milestone of 6 months of marriage. I wouldn’t say life is easy but I wouldn’t say its hard either. Everyday brings its own challenges but we seem to be navigating this life rather well.

Cheers to us and to another 6 months!

Liebster Award //

I was recently nominated for the Liebster Award by my Cara Box partner ((and friend)) Megan of Grad Student Needs  Hobby. Well she nominated me over a week ago…. I was previously nominated but totally dropped the ball.

The rules are pretty simple. Simply answer the 11 questions given to you by the nominating blog. Nominated 11 other blogs with 200 followers or less. Then create 11 questions for them to answer. I unfortunately do not have a lot of time to actually read blogs. I follow many on bloglovin and usually browse the titles all day ((in between phone calls)). I mark “read” and “liked” so my presence is known even if I wasn’t able to actually read the post. I feel like I’m missing out on the whole blogger community.

So here are my 11 questions and answers. I hope you enjoy them!

1. What are you reading? I am currently reading The Time Travelers Wife. I loved the movie but never got around to reading the book. My sweet cousin Nicole through me an amazing desert night before my wedding, For gifts she requested everyone just bring me a copy of their favorite love story. This was her gift to me and I love love love it.

2. Finish the sentence: Every day, I… Question if I am reaching my potential. I am planning on addressing this more in a later post, but its weird to think about. Am I truly reaching my potential if I am not working in the field I went to school for?

3. Other than blogging, how do you express your creativity? I love sketching and painting. Since L and I moved in together I’ve lost a bit of that passion. My goal is to set up a special art space in our new place. I really want to tap back into that. I will most likely never share any of my work here but things/people change…

4. What do you enjoy most about the holiday season? EVERYTHING! I truly feel like people tend to be more caring and giving this time of year. I literally imagine the scene from the end of How the Grinch Stole Christmas, every one holding hands singing around the Christmas tree. Plus a peppermint mocha never hurts.

5. How did you decide on your blog title? Well, Melissa means Honey Bee and everyone in my life likes to tell me how sweet I am. Badda Bing Badda Boom blog title. I have a feeling it may change as this space evolves and as I evolve. But for now it works for me and this space.

6. What’s one personal goal you’d like to set for the new year? I would like to become better at saving. L is an amazing saver. I would like to focus more on my own long term goals and remember those when I go to by that fabulous dress ((or on a target run)). Becoming better at this will also help me simplify my life and declutter.

7. Where do you most like to shop? I feel like this is being asked only because Megan secretly knew what my above response was going to be… Um hello Target and Anthropologie. I just can’t stop. Target is my one stop shop and Anthro is my styke to a T. Even our kitchen has items from Anthro. My pocket book thinks otherwise. I cannot leave Target without spending $100 and thats the price of a top at Anthro. Someone help me!

8. What’s your favorite month? I would say my favorite month is November. Its the perfect in between month. Fall is closing but winter isn’t here yet. The fall colors are here, but the mornings are absolutely frozen.

9. Link us to something that recently made you laugh. Hmmm…. I honestly had to think about this one. I was looking through old pictures and it made me laugh to see how we have changed… Look at the epic selfie I took when I got my new MacBook ((this was 4 years ago)). Oh to be 23 again.

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10. What is one thing you keep meaning to do but always wind up putting off? Actually a whole lot. I let myself get easily frustrated and honestly give up. I’m a work in progress, what can I say. Plus I do have this great business venture that I have been thinking about doing… Just haven’t taken the plunge. Stay tuned.

11. What was the most memorable lesson/assignment you ever had in school? My favorite assignment was in my design class. We were told to go out and find something that inspired us that isn’t your typical inspirational piece. Seeing what my classmates designed from everyday buildings, shrubs, cars, and even a gutter was so inspirational. It reminded me to really look around me and at the world. You’ll be surprised by what you see if you really take it in…

Well I hope you enjoyed my answer’s to Megan’s questions. I am planning a second part to this where I tag 11 other bloggers and give them questions. This girl is off to fold laundry then to bed.