Grandpa on my wedding day June 29, 2013.
October 12, 2017 this sweet soul left this earth. I’m not sure how to put into words how I feel. Heart broken with a mix of relief is the best way. He’s no longing fighting. He doesn’t have anymore doctors appointments. No more surgery… He can finally just be.
Grandpa has lived with us (my mom, sister, and I) since I was about 5 years old. Since I was 18 he’s been fighting cancer. But he put up one hell of fight. My whole childhood he was there. Every Friday night he was at the football games “watching me cheer” but I know he was really watching the game.
My heart aches knowing my future child will never know the love this man had for his family. I’m hopeful I can share his life and stories with them so they know the man he was. How very much he would have loved them.
Where ever he is I hope he’s watching over us. I also hope he knows and still feels our love for him.
Grandpa, I know its only been two weeks but I miss you dearly. I know you are finally at peace and I hope you get to spend your days golfing. I will live everyday trying to be the best person I can be while also always being kind to everyone I meet.
Let me just start since this post the weather has definitely decided to work with me. It’s been so hot and sunny this year! We needed it.
So far this summer has been great! I can’t even begin to explain but I’m going to try!
I got to meet this handsome devil IN PERSON! Heart exploded into a million pieces.
A little girls night with my mom and aunt. With my aunts special margarita’s of course.
L bought me a leather jacket. Do I look cool enough?
L working on his truck. I guess that’s one way to do it.
I typically don’t leave for work until 6:30 but this particular morning I had to leave at 5:30.
Sweet boy. Always needs his throw pillow while napping on the couch.
A little Snapchat filter after a pretty intense Betty Rocker workout.
Lake Billy Chinook weekend.
L testing out his captain skills.
After a long day outside these pups were pooped.
I guess that’s one way to nap…
My girl. Always has to be right by my side.
Hot summer drive with all the windows down.
Redneck Luau fun.
Sunset over the lake to close out Fourth of July weekend.
This weekend was one for the books. Our sweet Sally saw the Pacific Ocean for the first time. It seems silly that it took Sally’s cancer diagnoses for us to, I guess, wake up in a way. Our dogs are more to us than just dogs, they are our babies. Sally has been part of my husband’s life longer than he can count without truly thinking about it. There bond is one for the books. From accounts from L’s mom he sounds a lot like his grandfather (a great man I was not able to meet). As I have said before wherever he goes, she goes. She is his right hand gal.
As for the chemo. We are still seeing a positive response. We have been able to cut back on her cough medicine and she seems to be sleeping better each night. As I have said before, our job as great fur parents is to sustain her quality of life. We are not naive and in no way think the chemo is going to cure her, but at least we know we have done our best to help the symptoms. If you don’t have an animal that you feel this way for I highly suggest you get one. The love we get from our dogs, heck even our shop cats, is indescribable.
Saturday October 4th we took our dog to the vet for a follow up appointment. The vets have been treating her for pneumonia. We left after a little over an hour with heavy hearts. Sally has cancer.
Monday October 6th L took Sally to a specialist. The best in our area for treating cancer in animals. L and I love our dogs more than life itself. When we heard the words terminal we knew it wasn’t about curing but about eliminating the pain.
Thursday October 9th Sally has her first chemotherapy treatment. The appointment only lasts about 45 minutes. At the end we’ve already noticed her breathing is slightly better (chemo reacts differently in animals and helps with cancer symptoms drastically).
Saturday October 11th. Its been two days since Sally’s first chemo treatment. She’ll never been 100% but watching her finally eat some chicken and drink water has been the greatest thing.
I started this as mainly a timeline for our own reference. A place to remember the chain the events that has changed our life and our other pooches lives. For a dog that has lived a fabulous life who only knows love, it is our job to make her as comfortable as possible. L has decided we need to start Sally’s bucket list. First thing up is seeing the ocean. All dogs deserve to know the intense power and freedom that over comes you when standing on the sand in front of the powerful waves. We even created a hashtag just for Sally and her adventures, #sallysalamandersbucketlist.
Beer pong in a bar in the Philippines.
Lately we’ve been doing a lot of working and a lot of rental house maintenance… Nothing glamorous and exciting. L is in full fledge busy season and I started my new job in early June. Its just one giant game of him trying to stay caught up and me trying to catch up.
Thinking about: I wrote about it here but my 1.5 years left of my twenties seems to be looming over my head like a black cloud. I’m not in full fledge panic mode but I’m definitely aware. I want to live my/our life to the fullest and I’m starting to become aware of the little mundane task that I let become bigger priorities than they need to be. I’m giving too much of myself to stress. I want our life to have so many carefree moments like the picture above. We’ve been talking a lot about it and I think we’re on to a great start. Hello Mexico in 150 days!!
Watching: Before bed every night we have been Its always sunny in Philadelphia. Why have we waited so long to watch this show. I laugh tip I cry every episode. I get the humor isn’t for everyone, but I love the narcissitic characters. I feel like I can relate to Sweet D on many levels its rather embarrassing.
Looking forward to: L and I are looking forward to our 10 days in Mexico. We planned this trip perfectly. Right after his busy season is complete and right in the middle of the rainy season. Ten days away from the Oregon gray mist that we get for nine months straight is exactly what the doctor ordered. Plus we never took a big honeymoon. After spending a lot of cash on the wedding we decided to keep our honeymoon local and small. These ten days away is going to be exactly what our marriage needs every once in awhile. A trip just the two of you is like marriage insurance.
Reading: So I finished the first book of the Divergent series. I’ve started the second one but reading just hasn’t been on the priority list lately. I’m loving the second book more than the first. You get to learn more about the city and why they’ve divided the city. Plus you get to meet more divergents.
Loving: I’m loving a lot right now. The seasons are starting to click. The days are still hot but the nights have started cooling off to the point of needing a sweater. I love this time of year when you can feel the seasons click together. I’m just like every other person who lives in the PNW (pacific northwest) who thinks fall is the best season ever. I’m also loving the season of our life. We 2 months into year two of marriage and things just feel normal. Not a bad normal but a comfortable this is how things should be normal. We have a routine. We have our house hold responsibilities divided equally. We have our future figured out/agreed apron as best as any one thinks they can plan for the future. Always have to leave room for the unexpected.
Well as you can probably tell there isn’t a whole lot happening around here. Yes busy but right now seems to be more of the daily life stuff. Sometimes those are the best times.
Life lately has been pretty smooth. Most of our weekend’s have looked like the pictures above. I end up with dirty feet and dogs surrounding me. L makes dinner every night but on the weekends he pulls out the chef skills. I’m not a huge fan of the summer heat but being lazy makes these summer days amazing.
I’m still recovering a bit from my weekend in California but I need to get it together quickly. Life isn’t going to be slowing down anytime soon. Hello mid August!