Restless: searching for motivation 

Morning commute

So I just don’t even know where to begin. I guess the beginning but I’m not really sure when that even is. Last summer I left the insurance world and joined a branch of the construction world. 

This move has had some serious benefits but I’ve slowly been learning I’m not cutout for corporate America. I want out. I need out. 

More often than not I wake up with a pit in my stomach. That pit grows as the morning goes on until I pull into my offices parking lot and I almost crumble. What would happen if I just turned around? Just sat in my car? 

Not everyday is like this but definitely more than I’d like to admit. But I’m not sure how or when to make my next move. My husband thinks I should finish my real estate licensing. I agree with him completely but I’ve been lacking the motivation (maybe confidence). 

I just feel like I’m at a serious crossroads. Basically I need to shit or get off the pot. I’m 31.5 and am so ready for babies. Being my own boss would definitely been more ideal for motherhood. Random fact, the longest maternity leave at my office has been 8 weeks unpaid. WHAT?! Three months definitely feel long enough and 8 weeks is all I’m looking at! 

We leave on a vacation for a week in a week. Once we return I have to get serious. No matter how badly I want to lounge on the couch in the evening I have to get this done. Not just for my dreams of being my own boss but for my mental health as well. 

Happy Wednesday! 

Summer so far

Let me just start since this post the weather has definitely decided to work with me. It’s been so hot and sunny this year! We needed it. 

So far this summer has been great! I can’t even begin to explain but I’m going to try! 

I got to meet this handsome devil IN PERSON! Heart exploded into a million pieces.

A little girls night with my mom and aunt. With my aunts special margarita’s of course.

L bought me a leather jacket. Do I look cool enough?

L working on his truck. I guess that’s one way to do it.

I typically don’t leave for work until 6:30 but this particular morning I had to leave at 5:30.

Sweet boy. Always needs his throw pillow while napping on the couch.

A little Snapchat filter after a pretty intense Betty Rocker workout.

Lake Billy Chinook weekend.

L testing out his captain skills.

After a long day outside these pups were pooped.

I guess that’s one way to nap…

My girl. Always has to be right by my side.

Hot summer drive with all the windows down.

Redneck Luau fun.

Sunset over the lake to close out Fourth of July weekend.