6 Months //

Wedding shot

Wedding shot

Well we’ve arrived a small milestone of 6 months of marriage. I wouldn’t say life is easy but I wouldn’t say its hard either. Everyday brings its own challenges but we seem to be navigating this life rather well.

Cheers to us and to another 6 months!

Jealousy Pt. 2 //

Well, it’s here yet again. This feeling has become all too familiar lately and I am not happy with myself about it.

The littlest things seem to be getting to me and then I have to force myself  to remember all the great things I have going on.

As the year comes to a close and another one quickly approaches, I am planning on making this aspect of myself a work in progress. I am not making it a resolution because I don’t know it I’ll ever completely over come it. Jealousy is a natural human emotion that one has to choose to acknowledge then politely ask to leave.

Today is also a strange day… Its the final day of 2013. Another chapter in our lives is closing with a fresh new beginning just hours away. So many recap post and resolutions being declared. I’m excited for what the new year will bring and possible new beginnings. I cannot bring myself to shouting out my resolutions.

I do have some small goals for myself but nothing I’m not already working on. With 2013 closing I am really happy with the spot I’m in and where my life is. L and I have so many amazing memories from 2013. All of which that have made my heart happy and full. By working on my own goals our life can only get better.

Cheers to you and yours. Happy New Year!

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Jealousy //

The yard right after the snow melted last winter.

The yard right after the snow melted last winter.

It is 6:39 am on Sunday morning. I’ve only been up for about 20 minutes and I’ve already been consumed by jealousy…

Once my coffee was ready I decided to relax while browsing the previous nights events on Facebook. I saw a picture of a blast from the past friend and immediately thought she was in early stages of pregnancy. 1. I am completely aware of the ass hole I making myself look like for assuming that. 2. Why was my first reaction jealousy?

This now brings me to shopping yesterday. I felt jealous watching people purchase the $700 bed L and I want someday. And when I saw another gal walk around in the Tory Burch flats I don’t have and then thinking gosh the ones I do have aren’t that nice anymore. What is it that immediately brings this jealousy feeling?

During the holiday’s I know our consumerism is at an all time high, but I’m not judging. I love to shop for L (and myself, duh). He never buys anything for himself so why not spoil the guy. I will probably buy him three more gifts before Christmas Eve… During this loving to give time my jealousy surges.

I’m addicted to Anthropologie and J. Crew. I cannot always afford the the items I want, and I’ve learned to except to wait for sales. But that moment I see someone wearing the one item I’m watching everyday until the price drops is ridiculous. I need to learn to be happy for others. Great you can afford that fabulous dress. I have great pieces too and a great home.

At dinner last night I was chatting with L about my lovely addiction and he brought up a great point. We are trained to want to keep up with the Jones. Even within our circle of friends we want to keep the playing field even so to speak. Not always wanting to do it better or bigger but show that we can to.

Watching the Instagram activity has even made me jealous. Seeing people post early presents, whether it be to themselves or from others, I think how I need an early present.

I just need to slow myself down, take a deep breath, and stop. We will welcome a child into our home someday. I may own fancy ballet flats but teach myself I do not need them. We will but our dream bed once our house is built.

I need to remind myself all good things come in time and not all at once. What’s the point of buying our brand new bed if it has to go straight into storage any ways….

P.S. I know I sound ridiculous but this is my space and write whatever I want about myself. At least I’m being honest.

Liebster Award //

I was recently nominated for the Liebster Award by my Cara Box partner ((and friend)) Megan of Grad Student Needs  Hobby. Well she nominated me over a week ago…. I was previously nominated but totally dropped the ball.

The rules are pretty simple. Simply answer the 11 questions given to you by the nominating blog. Nominated 11 other blogs with 200 followers or less. Then create 11 questions for them to answer. I unfortunately do not have a lot of time to actually read blogs. I follow many on bloglovin and usually browse the titles all day ((in between phone calls)). I mark “read” and “liked” so my presence is known even if I wasn’t able to actually read the post. I feel like I’m missing out on the whole blogger community.

So here are my 11 questions and answers. I hope you enjoy them!

1. What are you reading? I am currently reading The Time Travelers Wife. I loved the movie but never got around to reading the book. My sweet cousin Nicole through me an amazing desert night before my wedding, For gifts she requested everyone just bring me a copy of their favorite love story. This was her gift to me and I love love love it.

2. Finish the sentence: Every day, I… Question if I am reaching my potential. I am planning on addressing this more in a later post, but its weird to think about. Am I truly reaching my potential if I am not working in the field I went to school for?

3. Other than blogging, how do you express your creativity? I love sketching and painting. Since L and I moved in together I’ve lost a bit of that passion. My goal is to set up a special art space in our new place. I really want to tap back into that. I will most likely never share any of my work here but things/people change…

4. What do you enjoy most about the holiday season? EVERYTHING! I truly feel like people tend to be more caring and giving this time of year. I literally imagine the scene from the end of How the Grinch Stole Christmas, every one holding hands singing around the Christmas tree. Plus a peppermint mocha never hurts.

5. How did you decide on your blog title? Well, Melissa means Honey Bee and everyone in my life likes to tell me how sweet I am. Badda Bing Badda Boom blog title. I have a feeling it may change as this space evolves and as I evolve. But for now it works for me and this space.

6. What’s one personal goal you’d like to set for the new year? I would like to become better at saving. L is an amazing saver. I would like to focus more on my own long term goals and remember those when I go to by that fabulous dress ((or on a target run)). Becoming better at this will also help me simplify my life and declutter.

7. Where do you most like to shop? I feel like this is being asked only because Megan secretly knew what my above response was going to be… Um hello Target and Anthropologie. I just can’t stop. Target is my one stop shop and Anthro is my styke to a T. Even our kitchen has items from Anthro. My pocket book thinks otherwise. I cannot leave Target without spending $100 and thats the price of a top at Anthro. Someone help me!

8. What’s your favorite month? I would say my favorite month is November. Its the perfect in between month. Fall is closing but winter isn’t here yet. The fall colors are here, but the mornings are absolutely frozen.

9. Link us to something that recently made you laugh. Hmmm…. I honestly had to think about this one. I was looking through old pictures and it made me laugh to see how we have changed… Look at the epic selfie I took when I got my new MacBook ((this was 4 years ago)). Oh to be 23 again.

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10. What is one thing you keep meaning to do but always wind up putting off? Actually a whole lot. I let myself get easily frustrated and honestly give up. I’m a work in progress, what can I say. Plus I do have this great business venture that I have been thinking about doing… Just haven’t taken the plunge. Stay tuned.

11. What was the most memorable lesson/assignment you ever had in school? My favorite assignment was in my design class. We were told to go out and find something that inspired us that isn’t your typical inspirational piece. Seeing what my classmates designed from everyday buildings, shrubs, cars, and even a gutter was so inspirational. It reminded me to really look around me and at the world. You’ll be surprised by what you see if you really take it in…

Well I hope you enjoyed my answer’s to Megan’s questions. I am planning a second part to this where I tag 11 other bloggers and give them questions. This girl is off to fold laundry then to bed.