There is something magical about relaxing on a Saturday listening to Billie Holiday. I don’t know exactly how or why she has always been my calm go to music. Especially on these almost fall-ish mornings. The weather is grey and cloudy. Still comfortable enough to enjoy your coffee on the deck. Everything just moves slower and is calm. Even the dogs move just a bit slower on Saturday.
The last few days my mind as been racing. Yes about the everyday worries I’m sure everyone has. But mine is more about the what could have been. Its been exactly a year now since my life changed. Knowing that day happened and I’m still here makes me want to try even harder to be the best person I can be. Not everyone is as fortunate but I was still changed.
I was recently asked why I keep holding on to something I couldn’t control. The only response I have is this, I can control my reactions to the uncontrollable. I feel we should learn from tough times. I’m choosing to use mine as a wake up call. I don’t just wake up, go to work, come home, and repeat everyday. I want to know I tried to make a difference in someone’s life. Even if it is a small thing as simple as smiling at the homeless man or offering him a cup of coffee.
I remember being annoyed that day because I had to drive with the AC in on since it was so hot. Annoyed I was going to be wasting gas and sitting in traffic after a long day. I remember texting L right before getting in the car that I was having a rough day. Its amazing how things can be put into perspective.
So I guess if you take anything away from here, try to remember not to take the little things for granted. You never know what could happen around the next corner.