Lately I’ve been doing a lot of thinking. Nothing incredibly serious… Just this pesky thing called body image. So vain, I know, but it’s there all the time right now. I can’t seem to shake that inner demon every time I’m about to eat or drink something.
In my long-lost past I was a huge calorie counter. I knew how many I wasn’t consumer and how “awesome” I was going to look because of it. Now I feel those day’s coming back.
Being that its summer we spend a lot of time outside whether it be canoeing, the river with friends, and of course the pool. I’m worried these feelings will effect the good time I could be having. I’m already noticing these feelings getting in my thoughts at work. I work with awesome people but I’m too busy worried about how I look in my outfit compared to everyone else. That’s not how I want to spend my day.
I guess this is something I’m going to have to be conscious of and work on. I talk to L about it regularly. I know I’m going to need help from my partner in order to stay on the healthy path instead of the “easy” path.
In other news, we’ve been doing a lot of thinking about life in general. I’ve been having these moments that remind of my just graduated high school self. As soon as you’ve walked across that stage, diploma in hand, everyone wants to know what you plan on doing with your life. Something similar is happening now that we’re married.
So to help everyone out, we’re not entirely sure what the plan is. We have a lot of the basics figured out. Some of the other stuff we want to figure out as they come. Isn’t that why people get married? To go through the unexpected stuff with someone they know they can make it through with…
We just want to enjoy life. And we plan on doing that as much as possible. First example is the river this weekend with friends. ((I’ve been counting the minutes until Saturday))