I never saw myself as one to hold a grudge or dwell. Boy have I been wrong. I’ve learned through some recent events that I hold on to things especially when I feel wronged. This isn’t something I’m proud of. I feel my high school self coming back instead of handling things as the late twenty year old gal I am.
I’m holding on to this hurt instead of just letting go. I guess I needed the hurt to learn it is time to just let go. I put a lot into relationships. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I let my emotions get the better of me. I’m holding onto someone else’s anger that I have no control over. I need to let go it (friends, things, clothes). Yes I hang on to clothing because I just might wear it again… We’ve all said that.
L tells me all the time how I need to stop analyzing and stressing about what someone said, or the item of clothing I gave away that I now have the perfect outfit for. I want to start my marriage a new and with positive people around us. Friends and family who are really happy for us. Nothing but positive energy. And I hope I bring the same to them.
Its sad the way we learn things about ourselves sometimes but then the hard times always bring the best of times. We shouldn’t dwell on the people or things from our past. They didn’t make it to our future for a reason.